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No matter what you ship that was pretty much it. *Spoilers for episode 4x9 after this, btw*
But anyway, THAT EPISODE. Whywhywhywhy?! Why are you doing this to me Merlin? All my creys. And everything sucked. And Morgana, omgIhatehersomuch! (Agravaine too) And poor Gwen! And Arthur. And how I had to watch Lance die AGAIN. And all the emotions! And now I just want to crawl in a hole and die. Farewell everyone, Merlin has finally killed me.
*Not mine* (should be obvious to those that know me, but yeah…)
This guy was able to put it into words like I haven’t been able to, probably because he grew up in it… But anyway, this is his response to a Reddit post by a frustrated teacher who said that teaching in an inner city school was making him “more racist.” Pretty interesting to me, since I didn’t grow up in an environment like that and at times I’ve felt like I just don’t understand a majority of other black people o.o;;;
[… This totally not for you, OP (you sound awesome!), but I typed this up for the other guy’s AMA. I tried submitting, but he had already deleted the post. If you are reading this thread (and was not trolling .. just really troubled) I wrote this for you:
Former “ghetto” black kid here:
I grew up in one of those schools and after reading your comments, I realize I was very lucky. Even though I completely disagree with most of your comments, I can kinda understand why you might feel the way you do.. but I’d like to offer another perspective. I know all too well what those inner-city schools are like, and I also know the lives of those kids are not as simple as you might think.
Plenty of young black kids in those schools are just as terrified and uncomfortable as you are, but here is something you might not realize: Those kids don’t just deal with that crap during work hours, they go home to it. They live in it 24/7. I can only speak from my perspective, but I have met plenty of other black people in college who have a similar story to mine. Peers, cousins, aunts, uncles, and yes, even parents treat kids that act “different” (aka WHITE) like outcasts — it is a living hell. In a lot of low-income neighborhoods, Black anti-intellectualism is just an easy way to fit in and not get your ass whooped. It starts young.. and by the time they become teenagers, it becomes an integral part their culture, identity, and self-esteem.. It’s sad, but a lot of black kids take pride in not being like white kids. I remember being made fun of at 6 years old because I “talked white” and like to read. My only friend was this asian kid, and his parents wouldn’t even let me play with him because I was black. I was just another statistic — Single-mom, no positive male role models, no money and living in the hood. You grow up fast when you watch TV and see non-black kids living the life, while your ass is getting the short end of the stick. I know its hard to understand where I am coming from with this, but [to quite a few “hood” black people] when you act like you are one of those white kids, others take it like you are trying to say you are better than everyone else. It’s dumb, but what do you expect? — these are children with little to no real guidance from their parents/environment.
If you combine the lack of good parenting with anti-intellectualism, no real “good” role models, and a general sense of disconnection from the average American (those kids would say “White”) culture you create what I like to call, the black kid trap. I was always a pretty sharp kid growing up, but I fucking hated my life. When you are kid in that kind of a shitty situation, all you really want to do is fit in. I don’t know where the mindset/culture of being hood really comes from (or care for that matter), but I know it is devastating on a young developing mind. I can’t speak for all black kids, but I know when I was growing up — being a rapper, saying fuck the police, and being an asshole to white teachers was a lot cooler than doing science fair and studying. You grow up and develop your own little reality in this culture, and unfortunately, a lot of kids are simply not strong enough to really fight their way out. They get sucked up into this lifestyle, grow up, continue to promote it, then have kids of their own.. and the cycle begins again — the black kid trap.
Anyway, I was lucky enough to have great teachers who really cared and saw my potential as a good student. I was picked on constantly but class became kind of a safe-zone for me. I love when I see movies about a white teacher changing black kids lives, but from personal experience, a lot of the teachers who really tried to change my life were black themselves. I remember having a white teacher who forced me to retake a placement exam because I made a perfect score — She definitely thought I cheated. The worst part is that even after retaking the test, she still treated me like a potential problem child just because of my skin color. I’m not saying one race of teacher is better than the other, but to me a good, strong teacher is a good, strong teacher no matter what color their skin is.
Moving on, in response to your increased feelings of racism — I’m sorry to hear that’s the frame you have chosen to view the situation. I can’t judge because I know how horrible that environment can be, but I would implore you be above it and seek out the potential in a lot of these kids and try to nurture it. If you are already doing that, awesome — if not, here is something to motivate you: Some of those very kids you invest that time into will grow up one day and remember you for the rest of their lives. I know I do. I appreciate everyone of the teachers who, despite the environment, really tried to inspire and teach me to the best of their ability. With the help of those great teachers I was able to do really well in high school, graduate from one of the best colleges in the US, and get my dream job working in Network Security. My life couldn’t be any better and it’s thanks to those very people who stood up and really tried to make an impact in “just another black kid’s” life. I know it isn’t easy, but hopefully you can find some motivation to change the life of a young man or woman.. and who knows, maybe you will learn something about yourself in the process. ]
I didn’t know if this was posted yet on tumblr, so I thought I’d do it. The landmass of almost all of the provinces in Tamriel, has been put into Skyrim. All which are inaccessible(without console commands) and which serve absolutely no purpose in the game. Why are they there? I personally don’t know. But take a look at the effort Bethesta put into these seemingly pointless landmasses.
At the south-eastern most part of Skyrim lays Stendarr’s Beacon.
If you’ve looked at a map of Tamriel, you’ll know this is the closest place in Skyrim, to Morrowind.
If you travel directly North East of Stendarr’s Beacon, you’ll end up finding a path to your right, in between two huge mountains.
I noticed how beautiful the path really looked. It seemed quite enthralling actually for some reason.
The path is nestled between two mountains, decorated with trees, and at the end of it some type of gateway, or arch.
But, that open archway is the end of the road. The game doesn’t allow you to go any further. I find it strange, that there’s an area like this leading from Skyrim to Morrowind. Nowhere in the lore was this stone wall mentioned. And why would it be an open arch like that? Why not closed? Why is there a space at all between these mountains if we can’t go any further? As you can see there are still trees and foliage beyond this wall, but you aren’t able to access it without console commands.
So, I went into No-clip like the BAMF I am and travelled down this path.
Landmass photos below.
The Elder Scrolls: Tamriel *o*
You would never see me outside again.